louisa & the bananafish

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nearness of you



CW: hetero sex

i'm starting off with a short story i wrote maybe five or six years ago when i was apparently very into the "beautiful melancholia" literary trope and used it often. like most of my short stories, this was inspired by a small action around which i created characters and a story.

the title is the name of an ella fitzgerald song (written by hoagy carmichael with lyrics by ned washington) with which i was likely obsessed at the time and which happened to fit nicely with the theme of the story.


CW: drinking, hetero sex, promiscuity, alcoholism

yet another story that, while writing it, i laughably thought would be my masterpiece. unlike the last one, though, i'm quite proud of this one, though i feel it's a little rough in some parts (mostly transitions).

the title i kinda stole from erica jong's
seducing the demon: writing for my life. if you've read any erica jong––particularly her still-relevant and perfect debut, fear of flying––then you will already be able to see isadora wing's influence on this piece.

i've also added some spanish dialogue in this piece because i'm apparently a show-off; this dialogue is translated at the very end.

and a final note: while this is a heavily autobiographical piece, it is not real. it is still fiction, so i don't want to hear y'all referring to this piece as if it's a personal essay or some nonsense––it's


CW: smoking, drinking, death

this is a new story that i just finished last week. this is the second version of it as i wrote the ending of the first version in a rush because i just wanted it to be done. after stepping away from it for a couple of weeks i realised that the original ending i had had in mind was the better way to go.

however, i'm still not sure if this is how i want to leave this piece.


CW: hetero sex (p in v) hetero oral sex, bdsm, mild voyeurism, use of the word "cunt" to describe vagina

this piece is one that embarrasses me a little bit now. it was one of the first stories i wrote after coming out of a five-year writing hiatus. i was writing a lot of "erotica" at the time, which i thought were good and now they embarrass me like the way old writing tends to embarrass.

still, i put it here because i wrote a follow-up to it (which you'll also receive today!), and i do like the sequel. both were inspired by one particular lover i had during my "penis tour of europe" who was not really attractive but for whom i went a little gaga. now he's just a happy memory that i sometimes think of when i'm with a particularly bad lover.


CW: alcohol, mention of mental illness, suicide

i apologise ahead of time for the melodrama that i feel is this story. when i started it, i laughably thought it would be my masterpiece. i don't feel that way about it anymore, but i don't hate it either.


CW: hetero sex (p in v) hetero oral sex, bdsm

as promised, here is the sequel to the previous story. i like this one better because i feel it has more beef to it––it's not just a sexy story. and i guess my misandric heart likes the subtle power play that is more prominent here.

part of the title is from my favourite album of all time, leonard cohen's
death of a ladies man, which is a beautiful album and you should all listen to it.

there isn't really much more to say that i didn't already say in the preface to the last story, so i'll let you get to it without further ado